Love

The next part of Once Upon a Time


I feel her eyes on my back and I can almost see her smile.  I only know that she smiles from the time when I was allowed to watch her enter the room and see what she wore.  She likes to dress for me as much as I like to dress for her.  My heart thumps and I ache as I wait for her touch but still she stands there not moving.  I try not to move but I can feel every strand of the carpet on my knees and I long to.

I wait and still nothing, I can still feel her wait there and so I try and distract myself and let my mind wander.  Later that day after the club neither of us spoke of it or for a time afterwards, but it was forever on my mind.  I didn’t know what it meant really ….how do you give yourself to another for them to own you?  I can still remember how it made me feel thinking about it, with my heart thumping in my ears and now as I shift and feel my collar shift on my collarbone I feel wet and aching waiting for her to release me.

I can hear the soft pad of her feet on the carpet as she walks towards me like she has done so many times since then.  Her feet seem to beat out the tempo she will soon take up on me, the one which says I love you.  I think back to that day a month from the day in the club and her questioning look.  Not a word did she say but I knew exactly what she was asking me.  I said nothing and looked to the floor my heart beating hard and the colour draining from my face.

As she reaches me I see the blindfold brought in front of my eyes and feel her buckle it so that it fits me snugly and I can see nothing.   My eyes although in darkness now see that day, the carpet I looked at rather than look at her and the wait for the answer to that question, the one I did not know the answer to. 

“Well?” she asked me as I stood there staring at the carpet heart in mouth not sure of what I would answer.  She lifted my chin so gently to bring my eyes level to her and I felt the tears begin to painfully prick at my eyes.  She held me then and said nothing while I sobbed and broke my heart; I had no idea why I was crying and I couldn’t stop as she held me.  When I had stopped sobbing she took me by the hand and led me to the bedroom where she slowly undressed me and laid me on the bed.

That day she made love to me like the first time so softly and gently and she teased each orgasm from me one by one.  After making me come several times I wanted to touch her and be inside her more than I ever had before and I gingerly touched her hip and trailed my hand over her stomach.  She shivered and I knew that I could go further as I reached her clit I lightly ran my finger over it backwards and forwards until she was arching under my touch.

As I looked up at her I could see her eyes glistened and as she came with my fingers inside her the tears fell slowly down her cheeks.  That was the moment I fell in love with her, right there lying on the bed watching her come from her eyes and through her eyes and tears I saw her.  For the first time I saw her, I realised then that I was already hers and she knew it, she just needed me to acknowledge it.

“I….I..”

I couldn’t find the words to say what she wanted and needed to hear.  I had no need to as her eyes locked with mine and held me there telling me it was alright; that she knew.  She beckoned for me to move up the bed and held me there against her chest so that I could hear her heart beat.  That was the day everything changed for the better.  My life became complete that day; I no longer feared everything as I had before we met.

As I smile I feel her lift me and help me bend over the bed, and as the beat starts I reach towards it and the love behind each beat.